hey.. sorry havent been updating.. been depressed and frustrated.. geez.. whatever i dont feel like talking about the shits that happened... In anycase.. i wrote a damn story in response to the song "whiskey" lullaby" i dont know if i'd want to type the whole thing in though.. but i guess i'll type some of that shits...

Kaze's Point of view --

Childhood friends... growing up together.. no one could ever think of them being apart... everyone knew they were meant for each other... but not her.. she has someone else... He did everything he could for her.. he kept his feelings to himself.. he was afraid of what might happened... one day.. she was dumped... he thought it would be a chance.. but not yet.. he comforted her... he hugged her.. he stayed with her... till she recovered... as time flies by.. he still havent said his feelings... Later.. that night.. as they sat together at the swings in a park.. where they first met.... He finally found the courage... and told her.... She teared... and laughed.. but she put him out.. like the burning end of a midnight cigarette .. He smiled as though it didn't hurt.. day after day... his friends and i watch him trying to forget... i watch him drink his pain away.. a little at a time.. but he could never get drunk enough to get her off his mind... she broke his heart... until the night... he got his gun... and got his last bottle... he put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger.. and finally drank away her memory... we found him with his face down in the pillow... with a note that said "i'll love her till i die" and when we buried him beneath the willow.. we heard the angels sing the whiskey lullaby..

Shouko's Point of view --

she stood there.. shaking as she glanced to the story in the news... the boy she had put out... gone.. as the story grew.. she tried to move on... but nobody knew how much she blamed herself.. for years.. she sat in regret.. she tried to hide the whiskey in her breath.. she never drank before.. she stayed in her home.. never coming out... she finally drank her pain away.. a little at a time.. but she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind.. until the night.. she went over to his place.. and found his gun.. she put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger... and finally drank away his memory... we found her with her head down in his pillow... clinging to his picture for dear life... we layed her next to him beneath the willow... while the angels sing the whiskey lullaby...

lol two days of normal school life.. what should i type in? studies and shuts? screw that man.... lol
just that today i happen to have a big feeling of guilt... damn.. i've made way too many mistakes so far... sometimes.. i wish disappearing is easy.... when im not afraid to die... when i can just leave this world... it's better off without me.. to begin with right?... why.. are there so many people against it... when did i commit.. to make people care for me.... what.. mistake have i done...?... i just wanna take it all back... and let then live their lives peacefully... without.. someone like me meddling.. in their lives..

alright.. so today.. didnt sleep.. so i had to prepare for my job so freaking early.. headed to jurong for my job with my suit and stuff lol.. boring shits man... at one point i nearly fell asleep tell ya that.. later on used a laptop for a while talked bout stuff online... yeah.. normal stuff.. met up with Dovin.. cause i thought .. y-know.. he needed to cool off a little.. blah blah blah lazy to update actually XDD
anyway arcade, food, stuff yeah.. fun isnt it? i guess xD.. i got nothing else to say so.. See yaz

Out of sight - Zack

kay uhm.. eff.. how should i start?.. tiring day as heck man.. i tell ya.. haha.. when off to have this "family day" thinking it would be for a few hours not to FOUR IN THE MORNING e-e;;.. anyway we went walking around as a family yeah, just to hang, lunch, dinner, stuff like that, seems like fun huh? wrong... maybe it's fun for the ones with couples.. but not me... i mean... dad and mom... sis and her girlfriend... bro and his wife... the kids got each other... i ended up listening to my phone.. staring at a certain photo... lol then FINALLY OVER THANK GOODNESS XDD i made a promise to someone and rushed online, whooo she's on! but for a while.. since she's gonna head to bed soon anyway.. ^ ^
anyway see ya guys.. looks like i aint gonna get online..
Kz out of the way.

Yo guys, since this is my first post.. i guess it's appropriate to talk bout myself...
but i'm not gonna do that :D i aint so shush xD.

Anyway. early in the morning. my sister's boyfriend fainted and i had to carry him back... fook..
man the guy was heavy... i wonder what happened...

Sports day 2010 for my school! great right?! :D heck no it isn't -_-;; anyway after i carried that guy back i took a shower, get dressed and move out, happen to meet some of my buddies at the bus station, and then a couple more inside the bus, fun right? annoying them? ^ ^ reaching there slacking off cause it was too early, later on in stadium the school gotta walk three rounds in the stadium.. heck.. me and one of my friends just ran xD from last to first and caught up to last and final sprint to first xD finishing fast is great! we get to choose our seats xD and later these cheerleaders were like looking out for guys to cheer together with em, heck i was dragged into it somehow o_o great isn't it? not really.... i kinda lost my voice xD.
and at the end when we're supposed to clean up, i was hiding in the restroom xD , Oh yeah!. went there by bus, got home by walking xD i just found out that it's just walking distance xD easy!

well i'm heading off. Kaze/Zack. heading off xP